I Am Thankful
Am aimlessly browsing through the net trying to get on to something interesting. I have never been like this before. But i find that my domestic situation is getting to me. I was so happy globetrotting and achieving one mile stone after another in my career. Fast promotions, new projects, international travel and a fast paced lifestyle kept me on my toes. I lost track of time and enjoyed being there. I lost track of how years passed soon and my personal life seemed to have blurred somewhere. True we did have our annual vacations at exotic places. But i do remember that i was all the time on conference calls asking my family to go ahead and have fun on their own. Whenever they complained that they were not getting my attention i tried to throw back at them my justification that i was making more money for their sake and somehow shut them up.
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I missed out on my children's growing up years. My wife used to try and talk to me about domestic issues at home, i never listened. She tried to get me to slow down and enjoy life with them, but again i paid no attention. Instead i gave her more money to employ extra hands to manage the house. Now when i look back, i thank god that he gave me such a nice person as my wife that she never lost touch with the reality and has always been grounded. With all the money i gave her, she never indulged or splurged. It all went into savings and she made sure that our children were brought up with discipline and values. When she did not get attention or assistance from me, she turned all her attention to raising our children alone. She became the mother as well as the father and ensured that they never felt lost. The most important thing that i respect her is for the fact that she never turned our children against me or let her emotional anger reflect through their attitudes.
Our children soon grew up and left home to join university. Home was an empty nest. I was based out of the country for six months a year and even while i was at home; my life was erratic flying in and out all the time. It is so weird when i think of how i used to get into our home in the middle of the night and let myself in while others were sleeping. But my wife is a terrific woman. When she understood that i had no time for her, she never let that create an empty void in her life. She got involved into community service, became a counsellor handling delinquent youth counselling and into meditation as well as yoga for personal development.
When i invited her to join me for a corporate meeting cum holiday and she refuses is when it hit me that i had turned away from her and from home. Suddenly the reality of the situation struck me that she didn’t need me as much as i needed her. I remember all those years when she must have sought some support from me but she never let my lack of support affect her or show in her interactions. Today i respect her ever more due to her dignity and her self reliance. I have given up my job and intend being beside her and becoming a full time husband devoted to my wife alone. Seeing her going about her life so independently has taught me a lot too. With her support i have planned to do some social work too besides playing golf. Now you know why i am here trying to order Cialis online. I want the Cialis to be delivered home before the weekend for i have made special plans to surprise my wife. I plan to cook a meal and invite her for a candle light dinner in the patio.
I never forget to thank the lord and my wife for being so kind and forgiving with me and giving me so much of love and beautiful life.